I made a time capsule that will be opened in 100 years and contained a representation of the "nowness".
my time capsule
dEpressIoN, dyLEXia
I was experiencing depression during the time when I was working on my Time capsule.
I felt Chaotic.
I usually try to calm myself by learning about philosophy. But at the same time, I was suffering from dyslexia, so reading is a unique experience for me.
This time capsule is to document my emotions, feelings and thoughts about the depression and dyslexia I experienced during this time, from my own perspective, for an audience 100 years in the future. My work will evidence what my experience as a depressed and dyslexic member of Generation Z was like.
wRITINg
In order to show my different states and thoughts over time in my writing, I spent about three hours every day for a week composing and then writing. Because I write in an irregular order, sometimes starting from the last sentence of a paragraph, I spend a long time improving and rewriting the content for readability.
I have selected some of the more representative parts of my diary from recently, including my reasons for writing the book, my experience of depression, my thoughts on anxiety and nihilism, dyslexia and the importance of drawing to me. The writing process made me look at myself at the same time, recalling a painful past, but most obviously feeling my growth.
cUt tO rEad
Instead of making each page individually, I thought it would be better to just put all the pages together and make a single block. Before I sketched, I researched that some old books need to be cut by the readers themselves when they are read. When an earlier book was printed, the contents of several pages were printed on a large sheet of paper and then folded by the pages to form a gathering. That's why the "unopened book" was produced. I think this applies to my amber book as well, if the reader wants to read it, they need to cut it out. On the side of the amber book, each page would be clearly marked, so I plan to laser engrave a cutting mark on the side. The process of cutting also represents my difficult process as a reader, gaining information gradually from the chaotic text.
The chaotic, unreadable words and line illustrations represent the difficulty of reading. Just as a photograph freezes a moment, this amber book freezes everything I am feeling, thinking and understanding at the moment.
present in open studio, central saint martins, 2023
